Got a lot done today. Like, a lot. Did dishes, did laundry, went food shopping, baked cookies, spent three hours cleaning Christina’s room, watched basketball, and spent 45 minutes with Robin by the fire pit until the propane ran out. Weekends are not long enough.
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April 4
Christina and I got to have dinner together in front of the TV, watching Jungle Cruise. It was another day of endless driving to activities for people other than me, but these little moments, even when we don’t talk to each other, mean so much to me. It makes it worth it.
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April 3
It was nice to be home for a family dinner tonight. We got to hear how the girls saw a duck get hit by a car on the way home from school and learned the entire history of pizza, which Christina learned from her writing test today. You can never go wrong with dead ducks and pizza.
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April 2
I was furious tonight when I came home from cheer and saw that no one had left any dinner for me or Robin. Billy and Christina ate last night’s leftovers and left us two halves of a chicken breast with no sides. So I used our nacho meat to make spaghetti and meat sauce… which we didn’t get to eat until 9:45pm. He said he was going to make mussels… no idea what happened to that plan. He was already in bed when we got home, so I couldn’t kill him. Tomorrow.
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April 1
Today was a long, rough day. I had a pretty nasty headache and left work early, but still had to teach the NAMI course tonight. Headache’s gone but now it’s somehow 11pm and I feel like I’ve done very little for myself all day. I did read a little, and did a crossword puzzle. Everything feels chaotic right now. Literally everything. But I said no twice today and that is a big step for me.
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March 31
I think the word for April will be “survival.” Christina is taking ten dance classes, Robin is on two cheer teams plus tumbling with two competitions coming up on the same weekend, I am teaching a NAMI class, and Billy just took on five new clients, all meeting after school when all the driving happens. Add in some extras like plumbing and car repairs, and you have the most excellent recipe for an epic tornado. Let’s get on with it, then.
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March 29
Every year I attempt to make this garden beautiful. I know I’ll never make it look as nice as my dad would, but I at least try to make it presentable without letting anything die. I know the pentas does ok, and heather has done well before, the roses seem to hold up… so I’m hoping we do ok. Impatiens are new this year, but I think they’ve done ok too in the past. Keeping my fingers crossed.
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March 28
I’m hanging in in the March Madness bracket, still holding on to first place. I want to stay up all night and watch all the games, but let’s face it. I can only have so much fun in one day.
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March 27
I am at a point where I cannot take on one more thing. I hate admitting that I can’t do it all and there isn’t anything I DON’T want to do, which makes it hard to adjust the load. This is not a new story. One of these days I’ll learn the lesson. Won’t be today.
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March 26
Today wasn’t really different from any other, but I found it so draining. I did some minor damage to my car, which is frustrating. But… Robin had a good tumbling class. She is moving on to level 3 skills next week and I think she’s excited. The cheer practice afterwards was not as fun. Coach ended practice early, angrily and abruptly, when something wasn’t working the way she wanted it to. Robin wasn’t even sure what it was. Oh well. Try again tomorrow.
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March 25
I co-facilitated another NAMI class tonight. It went pretty well, but I struggle to feel that I am doing good. All I can do is push through. Which is the same message I’m giving myself when it comes to running. I am going backwards in terms of progress, but I will just keep pressing forward. Eventually I have to get un-stuck. For now, though, sleep. I am fucking exhausted.
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March 24
Among the many things we did over the weekend, we finally hung my dad’s painting. This was always my favorite and I’m so thankful to have it now.
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March 23
This weekend was incredibly productive. Billy and I hung my dad’s painting, I went food shopping, Billy cleaned out the garage, I did laundry, I updated my website for the first time in a month, Christina finally finished putting together her book for publishing, a gift we gave her for her TENTH birthday well over a year ago, I cooked dinner for the first time in more than a week (it was delicious), and we played Trivial Pursuit. I signed up for two more races, but they are on weekends with dance competitions, so I may not be able to make it. We’ll see! Back to the usual grind tomorrow. Not excited about it.
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March 22
Today was ultra productive. Went to the gym, unpacked and broke down boxes from Aunt Cathrine, washed the sheets and towels and made the bed, washed the car, took down St. Patrick’s Day decorations and put up Easter decorations, booked a hotel for Robin’s end of season cheer competitions, made dinner, made a shopping list, took a shower… Tomorrow is food shopping and laundry and hanging artwork. I’m tired.
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