I hate this photo. I don’t even want to post it. But this is what I got. I am definitely in a mindset of, screw it, I don’t care. I just want to sleep.
Today was Daylight Savings, church and the silent auction, lunch at the Loop with the girls, Lowe’s and Michaels with Billy and Christina, working on the advent calendar (it’s coming along), pork loin and homemade applesauce, driving home from cheer, and trying to stay awake until a respectable hour. I’m almost there.
I jumped off a bridge today and I’m still falling. I don’t know where I’ll hit ground. I can’t complain. It’s not like anyone pushed me. So much for regret.
Today was my last NAMI class for this year. I’m so glad I get to do this. It’s as good for me as it is for the people taking the class. But it will be nice to have my Sunday afternoons free again.
This dog gets petted so much, and it still isn’t enough.
My new phone finally arrived and this is the dumb photo I managed to take with it. It took me hours and hours to set everything up and I just never had a chance to properly play. Still, I like that you can use the portrait mode on selfies now. I’ll have to play around…
Another 11:55pm shot just to get one in. It was a busy day. Church, then I broke our one-year-old dishwasher. That kind of ruined my day, and then there was my NAMI class, driving Robin to her friend’s house, and a 7:30pm dinner. Almost no time to breathe. So this is the shot we got.
I am going long days without doing things I should be doing for myself. I need to try to remember that two hours is enough time to go and look at water or to sit under a tree, even if it is 100 degrees outside. Even 15 minutes is worth it. I need to try…
We had planned on going to the pool this morning, but Robin’s body had other plans, so she asked to go roller skating instead. We were told she couldn’t skate along the wall and that slower skaters had to go in the middle of the floor. She was terrified and stood at the edge of…
Robin’s friend came over for a sleepover, so I felt it was good to spend some extra time with Christina. We went out for ice cream and played table-top curling. That’s right, table-top curling. I spend so much time with Robin because she really needs the extra support, but I need to be better about…
I need to find more time for myself to do things I enjoy. It has been so hot, though. I really can’t go out hiking. So I have been very listless. I have so much on my mind and I’m starting to avoid it and just block it out. Not sure that is the right…
I got a lot of work done today. I don’t say that too often. I also took a tiny little step forward today on something I’ve been thinking about for a very long time. It’s a step so tiny you almost can’t even see it, but it’s a step nonetheless. Now I will probably lie…
Drove home today and I am relieved to be back. It was a very difficult trip for me. I don’t think the kids will ever want to go hiking with me again. I killed them with mountains and heat and humidity and bugs and also mountains. I also really struggled to keep myself grounded. I…
There was a bit of a mental breakdown today. I have been trying to make everyone around me happy on this trip and it just hasn’t worked. Robin hated me for making her hike up two mountains, Billy didn’t seem to want to hike with us at all. I felt like I was bringing Siggi…