I’m becoming obsessed with the idea of beading. It’s all I want to do. I learned how to make daisy chains today. I have all these ideas for jewelry I will never wear, and I don’t care. I’ll just make it, and someone will wear it… or not. That’s fine, too.
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August 14
I had a pretty shitty run this morning. The goal was to run 5k. I ran that distance pretty easily last week with just one break, so I thought I would get through it no problem. It was SO HARD. I stopped three times to walk and I was dizzy for like 15 minutes afterwards. I don’t understand what happened. My last run was harder than this and it felt so much easier. My first reaction was utter disappointment and bewilderment. I failed and I didn’t know why. But in thinking about it more, I didn’t fail. I ran. I finished the 5k. I finished strong and I couldn’t have run any harder. Even shitty runs are still runs. So I’ll just acknowledge this one and move on. There will be other runs to conquer and many more opportunities to slay. I’m learning so much about myself through this process and I’m proud. Pride is motivation and motivation is progress. I will take it.
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August 4
Left work feeling stressed, and then felt stressed about making dinner and packing for our trip to Bonita Springs tomorrow, but somewhere along the way, I relaxed and it ended up being a pretty good night. Even if the Yankees can’t do anything right.
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July 31
I met up with my chorus carpool for the first time in what must be at least a year. We had dinner out and it was nice. So much to catch up on! It was great to see them, but work has been so stressful that it was hard for me to relax and enjoy myself. Last night I had a dream that the Amex CEO called me into his office for a performance evaluation and he spent the whole time trying to assure me that I’m doing a good job. That is so sad. But at least he’s on my side.
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July 16
I’m starting to get some footing back at work, which is just to say I wrap the day up with a headache, but not nausea too. Billy’s work schedule is bananas right now and he had no choice but to sleep through dinner, so it was just the girls and me tonight for beef burritos, even though what I really wanted was pizza. I also wanted pizza for lunch, but had to settle for tuna because I only had 40 minutes to order it, pick it up, and eat it before my 3pm meeting, and what is the point if I eat it so fast that I can’t taste it? So pizza stays on the menu for Eventually. I’m sure it’ll be worth the wait.
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July 13
Christina asked to go paddleboarding today, so I loaded it up into the car, got changed into my bathing suit, lathered on the sunscreen, drove to the boat ramp, took it out of the trunk to inflate, and it was about then when Christina asked where the paddle was. Packed it back up, came home, couldn’t find the paddle ANYWHERE. (Still haven’t found it.) And then it started thundering. And pouring. So paddleboarding didn’t happen today. I did sew a new shopping bag, which was a lot harder than it probably should have been, but also fun. And now another weekend is over. Sigh.
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July 10
What a day. I am absolutely overwhelmed at work right now, literally spinning wheels in every possible direction at once. I got so caught up in trying to stay on top of things that I forgot about Robin’s tumbling class. We left 20 minutes late and then got stuck in a massive traffic snarl caused by a four-car crash closing down one lane on the road. She missed more than half the class. I came home with a headache, nausea, and general exhaustion. But Robin made dinner for us and it was delicious (chicken tikka masala), and then the Yankees came back to win a game in which they were no-hit for seven innings and down by five runs. So I suppose things somewhat even out in the end.
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June 25
Robin is sewing so fast that she’s running out of projects at camp. In fact, she was so fast that she broke the needle on the sewing machine. Her quality is what you’d expect with her speed, but it doesn’t seem to bother her, so I say go have fun, child. She has made 15 pillows, three pillowcases, an apron, a birthday crown, a cube, and a half a tote bag, and it’s only Wednesday. (The tote bag was kind of a bust. She wasn’t feeling well and fell behind the instructions and couldn’t quite catch up.) She’s looking up extra patterns right now so she has something new to work on when she finishes all the projects two hours before camp ends. I’m just happy she found something she enjoys. I’m looking forward to learning from her.
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June 15
It was a weird Father’s Day. Billy’s been sick, so he didn’t even get out of bed until noon. It was mostly just a day to get chores done while he laid on the couch. Laundry, food shopping, house cleaning. Christina and I did bake cannoli cookies for him, but somehow I completely forgot one of the most important ingredients and never added the pistachios. How disappointing! We’ll have to have a do-over, maybe next weekend.
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June 7
It was a pretty boring day. We scratched off one of the adventure cards, but we weren’t able to make it happen this weekend. Hoping we can schedule it for another weekend soon. Did go to the gym, though. Also did a lot of knitting, went food shopping, played some Harry Potter, took the dogs for a walk with Robin… I am going to have to come up with something to do tomorrow that is not as boring as what we did today. Hmmm…
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May 22
Dance team assignments for next year were announced today. Christina is on the junior team again with an asterisk that means something which will be disclosed at a later date. (I have learned not to ask too many questions.) She was also awarded a small group dance (a trio) with her friend Gia and another girl, Chloe, who is new to the team. I’m sure Christina is excited, but by the time I had a chance to talk to her about it, she was engrossed in a game of Block Blast and the only responses I got were a series of grunts. Meanwhile, Robin had her last tumbling class at Brandon today. Although Gabby initially said the gym would be open through the summer, class registrations have not opened past next week, which was cancelled because the coach will be out of town. She has one more private lesson next week and then we will move on to a new gym. As for me… nothing nearly as exciting to report. I am knitting a new sweater. I worked. I had chicken caesar salad for dinner (thank you, Billy!). I had a crappy run on the treadmill, but saw pretty clouds in the Panera parking lot afterwards. And now I guess it’s time for bed.
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May 15
Robin had a tumbling class tonight. She and her coach were the only two people in the building. I’m not sure the gym will last until the end of summer as planned. But she was so excited that she’s getting her back tuck. If it makes her happy, it makes me happy. Plus it’s cool to watch.
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May 14
Gabby announced today that she is closing the gym after this summer. For some reason this makes me sad, as angry as I was just a few days ago. As sure as I was that another season wouldn’t be possible for her, I’m sorry for her. I wish it could have been better, for everyone.
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May 4
Robin hung up her cheerleading bows today and finished the season standing tall. The team hit zero this morning, but it wasn’t enough to dig them out of last place. I’m proud of the maturity she demonstrated amidst a very small segment of highly immature teammates that unfortunately ruined the season and possibly the sport for her. I don’t know what happens next other than a good night’s sleep and going out for ice cream on Tuesday. That might be enough for now.
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April 8
Tonight was NAMI class, and we had a pretty good class. Everyone showed up and participated, which always helps. I am grateful to have the opportunity to teach these classes, but giving up my only free night of the week is a hefty sacrifice. Still, I made a point to spend 30 minutes with my headphones on after everyone went to bed, doing nothing but listening to music. No crossword or jigsaw puzzles, no browsing on my phone, just me and my music. I forgot how wonderful that is, and all the incredible imagery I enjoy. It was inspiring. I want to try to do this at least three times a week, just to disconnect from everything else swirling around me. I barely know what’s going on anymore, and I don’t have the time to care. Couple more weeks and things should settle a bit.
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