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I moved five tons of paver gravel today all by myself, except for the last half hour when I finally gave up and asked Robin to help. My body is just done. Every muscle hurts and I can barely keep my eyes open. This weekend was so much more work than I expected. I underestimated…

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Billy, Christina and I moved 5.6 tons of patio materials today. Talk about hard work. We (well, I) have another 3 tons to move tomorrow. Billy has to work, so I’m on my own. I’m pretty exhausted, but motivated to get it done. After this marathon, I can go at my own pace because the…

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The patio materials arrived today. Billy doesn’t think I can get it all moved in six hours. I hope he’s wrong, but he probably knows better than I do since it’s literally his job to move freight. I am hoping not to have to work when it gets hot, and I really want the use…

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I had to do math today, which is always risky. Somehow every time I work something out mathematically, when I try to recreate it later, I get a totally different answer. I can only hope I’m at least close. Otherwise the day was kind of a blur. I got so engrossed in work that everything…

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I feel a little better today than the last few days. I have a little hope. I needed some hope. Also Billy, Robin, and I went to the Loop for dinner (Christina had dance). Everyone was in a good mood, so that also improved my mood. Cherry on top was I finally finished this Saturday…

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I don’t regret my career decision late last year to take on this training role, but I very clearly did not anticipate the level of challenge I’ve faced over the last three months. Everything from scheduling pressures to insufficient content design to poor trainee performance to judgment from the leadership team to a complete unwillingness…

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Billy and I got married 18 years ago today. Christina had dance right at dinnertime (naturally), so we went out for lunch instead. Not the most romantic anniversary ever, but we’re not the best at romance. Or, I’ll just be blunt: Billy is not the best at romance. He thinks dirty socks and butter boxes…

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Day two of dance competition was a lot easier than day one. I got to watch the production piece from backstage because I carried a table onstage. They won a golden egg! Christina’s pieces didn’t do as well at competition this year as they did last year and I think she was disappointed. I’m proud…

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Christina had a dance competition today. It was a very long day – we left home at 12:45 and got home at 9:45, with no time for lunch or dinner. Christina looked great, though! It was the last time she’ll perform her trio. Big smiles on their faces! They won a judge’s choice award for…

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Today frankly sucked. I just feel so inept. My training redesign was summarily rejected, my class is failing, and their leaders are pointing at me for their failure. I just want to give up. I’ve let everyone down, especially myself. I need to do something to lift my spirits, but it’s almost 10pm and I’m…

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I’m going to have to do a lot of ground leveling for this patio project, which I realized as I was grilling cheeseburgers. Luckily I will have lots of fill. As I wait for the materials to arrive, I’ve been creating a hard labor playlist on Spotify, which has been fun. I haven’t made a…

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I got up early to go for a run, but it turns out I am not hardcore enough to run in the rain and wind. I ended up surfing Spotify for an hour instead. Tomorrow should be drier. Otherwise feeling pretty caught up at work for the first time in months and I don’t know…

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I was having a decent day until I went to the pharmacy to pick up a prescription for Jackson that I dropped off yesterday only to find, after waiting in line for 15 minutes, that they had no record of the prescription at all. They lost it. So now I have to go back to…

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Today was just annoying. Idiotic things got to me and I got a headache. I took a short nap and it went away, but now I’m just exhausted and all I want is ice cream and beer. I settled for two Starbursts and pajamas. I can’t wait to go to bed.

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I bought the bulk of the supplies today that I need to do the patio project. After taking measurements, my brain nearly exploded. Let’s just say this is no longer a $500 project. And also that I am expecting a 2-ton delivery of supplies next week. That I will have to move from the driveway…
