Robin tested positive for flu type A and strep throat today. She got the strep from me and the flu from the friend we went to the arcade with last weekend. Poor kid! She’s holding up pretty well considering. I’m trying my best to believe that I won’t get the flu from her, but I guess it would be fair turnaround.
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December 16
I had a rough morning. Being a parent is hard. Especially when it puts you face to face with the way you treated your own parents. I found myself pitting hurt and grief against guilt and regret and it sucked. I tried to run through it and that helped, but at the end of the day it was the same. I fear my relationship with Robin will end the way my relationship with my mom did, and that rips me to the core. How on earth do you deal with these enormous emotions and still parent your kids?
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November 26
I spent six hours making an apple pie salted caramel cheesecake for dinner tomorrow. Each of the components tastes good on its own, so hopefully when it all comes together tomorrow it’ll be awesome. I had fun making it, but now I’m tired. I have to get up at 5:30 tomorrow morning for my 5k and I am not looking forward to it. Even birds don’t wake up at 5:30am. It’s for a good cause, though. I know I’ll come home pumped up and ready for some apple pie salted caramel cheesecake.
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October 17
I had a great run this morning, which really set the tone for the whole day. I bought a bunch of yarn to make octopus keychains, but it’s too fat, so I decided instead to make granny squares. We’ll see how many of them I can get, and whether it’s enough to make anything of value. It’s nice to have something to do.
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October 4
Today was the fall festival at school. Every year it seems to get smaller and smaller. I have no right to complain because I have never offered to volunteer, and I know they can’t do much without help from parents. But there were a lot of people there and they seemed to be having fun, so I’d say small but successful. Other than that, today was incredibly boring. I am completely out of ideas for things to do. I’d say I’m open to suggestions, but honestly I’ve suggested many things to myself and turned them all down, so it’s as much my disinterest as it is a lack of imagination. We’ll see what we can come up with tomorrow.
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October 3
Today didn’t quite live up to expectations, but it’s ok, really, because expectations were kind of low anyway. My run this morning sucked. After a couple really great runs, I had gotten hopeful that I’d finally broken through the barrier, but today I just couldn’t do it. I finished feeling insanely disappointed. Crushed, really. I feel I have tried everything and I can find no plausible reason for my lack of progress and it just makes me miserable. I’m still not giving up. I’m just enjoying it less. The day kind of never went up from there. I did go out for a short hike before it rained, which was nice, and I should have enjoyed it, but instead it made me sad because I remember a time when we would have hiked as a family and all enjoyed it, but now no one would come with me even if I paid them each a hundred dollars. That special time I had with them is good and gone. And then I went to the mall to get a birthday present for Robin and maybe buy that dress, but as I wandered around, I felt more and more indecisive and less and less inspired and ended up coming home with nothing. I spent the rest of the day reading a book I only like a little bit. And that was my “vacation” day. I’m trying to think of a way to salvage something from it, but I think honestly the problem is my frame of mind, and my mind can be astoundingly unmovable and stubborn, even if you show it exactly what to do and how to do it and why, with piles of evidence proving how important it is. This has not been my reality for such a long, long time that I actually thought I’d never feel this way again. But here we are.
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August 13
So this happened today… heard a loud crack and thump outside my office window and came outside to find this, just inches away from Christina’s bedroom. Very thankful it missed the house. Took Robin to tumbling in the middle of a violent storm and witnessed lightning striking the other side of the street as we were driving. That was fun. We also had dentist appointments today. Robin has another cavity and three more watch areas… It’s time to come up with a better plan for her oral hygiene. Pretty eventful day. I’m ready for bed.
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July 8
Felt kinda lonely tonight while the girls and Billy all disappeared to their rooms after dinner. Used the time to do the dishes, take out the trash, and prepare a special birthday surprise while watching the Yankees game. It’s been a long time since I felt kinda down… not a fan.
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June 21
There was a lot of dance today… dance classes and then a dance team orientation meeting. In between all that, I completed the last bit of sewing for the advent calendar. It just needs rods and a hanger and then it will be done! There is one little piece of sewing that I want to redo eventually. I’m too frustrated with it right now to look at it. Other than that one little corner, I’m so happy with it. I can’t believe it came together the way I’d imagined it, especially since I’ve never really sewn anything before, AND I had no pattern to work from. I can’t wait to use it this Christmas. Photo to come when it is 100% completed.
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June 2
Christina started camp at the Y today. I wasn’t sure how she’d like it, but she came home excited that she was the gagaball queen. I’m so glad she enjoyed it. Now Robin needs something to do.
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May 30
My legs have been killing me since Tuesday’s leg workout, so I skipped this morning’s planned run and instead went for a three-mile walk around the neighborhood. Too many people walk around here. I kept having to say hi and good morning to everyone. Sheesh.
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March 19
Today’s big adventure was a steamboat cruise to the Chalmette Battlefield, where the Battle of New Orleans occurred in 1815. I knew next to nothing about the War of 1812 before, and now I know next to almost nothing. It was still interesting, and now I can say I took a steamboat down the Mississippi River.
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December 24
We did a lot to celebrate Christmas Eve, but we forgot to read T’was the Night Before Christmas! Seems like everything worked out just fine all the same.
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December 4
Got my boobs squished this morning (after they called me 17 times in less than two days to schedule). I was overflowing sarcasm at work, and then watched Robin’s cheer practice. The team struggled tonight and she was literally sick with anxiety over it. But the coach, who had pissed me off tremendously over the weekend with his endless condescending tone, came in on a complete 180. He was so motivational and supportive tonight. They dropped the same stunts every time for almost two hours. There were tears and Robin almost puked. But after an hour of talking to them, he got them out of their heads enough that they hit the whole routine without a drop. Robin never left a practice happier. It was exciting to watch. We’ll see if they can bring that momentum to Saturday’s competition. I hope so!
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November 29
It doesn’t really feel like Christmas to me yet. Maybe since less than 24 hours ago it was still Thanksgiving.
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