Dealing with childcare is incredibly anxiety-inducing for me. I spent an entire hour at tonight’s chorus rehearsal panicking over whether I’d need a babysitter and then whether she’d be available if I did need her, and then when I thought she couldn’t come, I started planning what to do if I didn’t get home before Billy had to go to work, and then after all that, we finished in about 15 minutes and I made it home just in time. I seriously can’t do this anymore. I love singing with the chorus, but the stress is killing me.
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February 3
It has been a rough week. A lot of tears, a lot of angst, a lot of trudging through endless emotional muck. February is not my favorite month.
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January 30
I had a very rough day today. Lots of tears, lots of very hard-won personal restraint. I may eat the remaining half a can of chocolate frosting from Christina’s birthday cake tonight. Not sure that solves a single thing, but also not sure I give a damn.
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January 29
We survived the sleepover. Christina is a little cranky today, which was to be expected. I decided to take a short hike at Losco Park. It’s not the most interesting trail out there, but it’s short and it’s close and on so little sleep, it works. It’s nice to be outdoors.
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January 3
On days that only seem to blend with all the other days, there must still be something worth remembering. Even if it’s just the hope for a different tomorrow.
