Before I even started work today, I went for a run, did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen, took the kids to school, and went to the gym. And then when I got to work, I solved all my problems of the last few months in a moment of sheer enlightenment. (Modesty becomes me.) I will just have to make it through the rest of this class, which I hope will only be a couple more weeks. With luck, I may get my life back soon, and people will love me for it, too.
Tag: pinot
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March 25
I finished the day with a splitting headache. There is just so much riling me up at work and I can’t control my ire. I have a clearer idea of what I can throw off my plate; now I just need to find the time to do it. First I need to recover.
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March 23
Back to work today, and it was a stressful day. It took all of about six minutes for me to begin feeling annoyed, 23 minutes to feel angry, and an hour and a half to become irate. After that I was just tired and overwhelmed. But undeterred! Christina made tacos for dinner and then I read more of Billy’s book while I waited for her at dance. She wants to take eight classes during the summer. I’m glad she likes it, but I’m tired just thinking about it. So I won’t. Problem solved.
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March 3
Two things of note happened today: One, I showed up one entire day early for my therapy appointment that is actually tomorrow and not today. This explains why it wasn’t on my calendar. And two, Robin tried a gymnastics class this evening and enjoyed it, which makes me so relieved because that girl needs something to make her smile. We are going to go back next week. Everything else was just everything else. Pinot here is mad at me for not letting him lick the inside of my mouth. Sorry, bud. Even I have my limits.
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February 25
Robin had a dentist appointment today to get cavities filled. They decided to only do two of the four to try to limit her discomfort since she always gets sores after a filling. So now we have to go back again in a week to do the other two. They tried using a different anesthetic this time, and it does seem a little better, but she still has a big old sore on her lip. Maybe this will inspire her to brush her teeth, though. So far I have not seen that happen, but I still remind her every night. That also annoys the fuck out of her, which doesn’t bother me so much because spending $250 every six months for fillings is also annoying. The dogs, however, could care less as long as I give them potatoes to eat before bed.
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February 13
Robin may look a lot like Billy, but she feels a lot like me. I wish we could lift it out of her and set her free, but I know all too well that we can’t. This is her journey and all we can do is walk with her on it. I have loved and lost my mom, my family loved and almost lost me, and the thought of loving and losing Robin is unbearable. Desperation only adds fuel to the fire, so that burden is mine to deal with. In the meantime, I hope that just being beside her is enough.
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February 5
It’s hard to believe it’s been 34 years since my dad died. The more time that passes, the more I realize how little I know about him. Like, I don’t know what his favorite flavor cake was. I think his favorite color was blue, but I’m not sure. He liked birds and drawing and he was a funny guy. I remember one year my mom went away for a weekend and Dad bought TV dinners and we watched football while we ate. I think it’s the only time I can remember Dad ever watching football. And I also remember how classically terrible that TV dinner was. But it’s still one of my favorite memories of Dad. That and playing with him in the snow. And riding the lawn mower with him. Ok, so there were some moments worth remembering. I just wish there had been more.
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January 26
I took the day off from work and hardly ever opened my eyes. I’m being a baby, but I haven’t been sick in years, even just a cold. I’ve forgotten how to deal with it. I may take tomorrow off too. Today was just aches and pains, but I can feel congestion settling in now. So I am phoning this one in, guys. It’s time for (more) sleep.
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January 20
We went out to eat again tonight. Robin wanted to go out for Colombian food, and who are we to say no? It was delicious. I got some reading in while Christina was at dance. Right now I’m reading Once A Runner, by John Parker. He writes in my language. Otherwise just trying to stay awake and alert around here!
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January 17
I spent several hours getting my website caught up this morning. It’ll be out of date again by tomorrow. Oh well! Christina, Billy and I played Five Crowns and I beat their asses bad. I only scored six points the whole game. Go me. Then Christina had dance, we had dinner, and I freaked out about parenting teenagers. A typical Saturday.
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December 27
We went down to Daytona today to see Rosina and Dion. I was happy they seemed to like the gifts we bought them. The traffic getting down there was horrendous. It took two hours to make what is normally a one-hour trip. There are entirely too many people on this planet, and too many of those too many people were on I-95 today. It was still nice to see them. I can tell they enjoy hosting.
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November 23
Finished this morning’s run at Canopy Road Cafe and met Billy for a breakfast date. Nice way to finish a run! We made an amazing dinner tonight, which took us most of the day to make. Robin and I made tiramisu and Billy and Christina made pasta carbonara from scratch. So yummy! When dinner was over, we played Ticket to Ride. I was sure I was going to win with all the routes I completed, but I was two cars short and Billy won. Again.
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November 19
Today was a day for assertiveness. I was feeling good about it in the moment, but now it’s quiet and I’m alone and I’m second-guessing myself. Also today: I made a Christmas music playlist because Christina only wants to listen to Christmas music and every Christmas music playlist on Spotify is horrible. I 95% finalized our Thanksgiving plans. I made two octopuses and chicken parmesan. I angered Robin when I told her there was no way she could earn extra time on her phone at 8:45pm. So a typical day.
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November 1
I did the 5k run at Ed Austin Park this morning and finished with my best time yet. I stopped once near the end to walk for about a minute. I probably could have made it the whole way, but I kept speeding up without realizing it until I couldn’t handle it anymore. I felt great about it, though. The rest of the day was low-key. Finished the last octopus and bought supplies to make 50 more. Took Christina to dance. Caught up on my running log. Went for a short walk with Robin in absolutely beautiful weather. And made Pinot wear these tacky light-up glasses that Robin got in her trick or treat bag last night.
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September 25
Made it home at last. I didn’t want to go, and I’m so thankful to be back, as important and successful as the trip was. I listened to running and history podcasts most of the way home, which made the time pass quickly. After I got home, I tried to pick Christina up from school in a rainstorm, but she didn’t recognize my new car or hear me screaming her name, so she walked 90% of the way home before I finally got her into the car. Then was dance and then we went to Salento for dinner, which was delicious. And now I’ve finished reading Beloved, which was just such a sad story, which is such an incomplete assessment of the book it’s almost shameful. I am ready for bed.
