I was having a pretty good day until an hour before bedtime when I realized that Robin’s time limit was off on her phone. I turned it off and she hasn’t spoken to me since. I hate her phone and I want to throw it into the ocean. I miss her.
Tag: flower
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June 14
I am so glad the weekend is finally here. This week has felt so long. Mostly I just want to sleep past 8am.
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June 12
The highlight of my day was driving from dance class to cheer practice in 20 minutes without speeding, almost half the time it normally takes when I do it an hour earlier. Also today I really appreciated my daughters’ smiles. They fill me up on bad days.
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June 6
I’m always excited when a new flower appears in the garden. This one’s blooming, as well as all the hydrangea and milkweed. It looks like a proper garden. Maybe I can do this after all. I better not get too cocky.
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May 30
Robin got a walking boot today and smiled huge when she literally threw her crutches to the floor and walked away. I’m just happy because now she can empty the dishwasher and get her own glasses of water.
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May 16
I might have quit therapy today. We also made delicious chicken tikka masala for dinner and I took a shower. I bowed out of the worship committee at church and I feel so relieved. Feeling generally out of it. I haven’t even been able to put my heart into complaining this week. Maybe I need more sleep.
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May 13
The power has been off and on tonight in the rain, which is funny because we’ve lived in this house for 11 years, including through a few hurricanes, and the power has never more than flickered before. It was out for about 15 minutes at one point and Christina was flipping out. Telling her about the time I had to go five days without electricity OR running water during a snowstorm didn’t help the way I thought it would. But Mother’s Day roses by candlelight really are quite beautiful, especially paired with the sound of rain falling on the roof. It’s so nice that even though the power came back on 45 minutes ago, I’m still sitting here in the dark. It’s so easy to forget to be still.
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May 11
Billy and I started working on our murder mystery jigsaw puzzle and it is so fun. I’m a nerd. We also got to have hamburgers and hot dogs on the back patio and draw until the sun went down and it was perfect. I’ve gotten everything I asked for in life. Bonus was this photo-bombing lizard.
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May 6
Robin got a back handspring without a spot for the first time today! I don’t know how these things progress, but maybe she’ll have one in time for next year’s cheer tryouts? Or at least maybe she’ll be close. She’s got a few more weeks. She is so proud of herself, as well she should be!
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May 2
Highlights in my day: Watching Robin work on her back handspring, weeding the gardens, worship team meeting, baked ziti, and of course bunny making. Not highlights: Work.
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April 23
People say you should stop to smell the roses. Right now it’s time to stop and smell the jasmine.
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April 20
This amaryllis has been in our backyard for a couple years and has never bloomed. But here it is now and it is happy as a clam. Thank you, amaryllis.
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April 8
The kids got glasses to watch the eclipse and I was counting on borrowing them so I could see it too, but they both lost them before the end of the day. The best I could do was look through my tinted sunroof with my sunglasses on for a tenth of a second, which was long enough to burn the shadow into my retina so I could see it with my eyes closed. That was awesome, but really the light here on earth and the ring around the sun were cool too. I adjusted the exposure on this one so you could see the sun’s ring, but the light on the grass and flowers really was this bizarre. It was the literal highlight of my day.
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April 3
I’m continuing to truck along. Trying to get some things straight for myself, trying to stay productive creatively. I’m writing, only maybe one or two paragraphs a day, but I’m writing. I’m finding a lot of the process is trying to think through a story I don’t really know. I’ve doubled my progress from last year and it’s only just April. It’s something. May not necessarily be good just yet, but it’s something.
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March 26
Sometimes I do everything right and still everything feels wrong. It’s times like these that I wish I could tear my head out of my heart and just be happy being happy. It is the ebb of life. Eventually the tide will turn again.
