I had a really good day today. I solved a big problem at work, and that made me feel pretty good. Robin got into her first choice high school, which apparently she no longer wants to go to, but OH WELL HONEY. She also tried out a tumbling class after gymnastics tonight and really liked it, so looks like we’re switching to tumbling. Everything just seemed to click today. Those days don’t come often, so trying to make the most of it.
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April 15
I feel a little better today than the last few days. I have a little hope. I needed some hope. Also Billy, Robin, and I went to the Loop for dinner (Christina had dance). Everyone was in a good mood, so that also improved my mood. Cherry on top was I finally finished this Saturday crossword I’ve been working on for like a week. Sometimes I just need to see things in a different light for them to become clear.
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April 8
I got up early to go for a run, but it turns out I am not hardcore enough to run in the rain and wind. I ended up surfing Spotify for an hour instead. Tomorrow should be drier. Otherwise feeling pretty caught up at work for the first time in months and I don’t know what to do with myself! I’m putting the extra time into finding ways to never let this happen again. So far so good. Otherwise it was dance and gymnastics and McDonald’s on the way home. The Yankees lost. I guess they’re allowed to lose sometimes. I guess. It’s time for bed, yo.
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April 7
I was having a decent day until I went to the pharmacy to pick up a prescription for Jackson that I dropped off yesterday only to find, after waiting in line for 15 minutes, that they had no record of the prescription at all. They lost it. So now I have to go back to the vet to get another copy of it, drop it off AGAIN, wait for them to (hopefully) fill it, then go back for a fourth time to (hopefully) pick it up. I am so angry. I shouldn’t let Walgreens ruin my day, but lately I have been letting little things get to me more than usual. I think it may be that I’m overtired or that I don’t have enough going on to balance out the bullshit, but it’s exhausting always being angry at everything. Especially since I can’t do anything about it. I need to go to sleep.
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April 1
I felt pretty proud of myself today. My stroke of brilliance yesterday held up to a good night’s sleep and seems even stronger today. Fixing things makes me so happy. You know what else makes me happy? Watching Robin do gymnastics. She hangs in there with those seven-year-olds. There is one little girl in her class who is absolutely terrible at gymnastics, but she puts her whole heart into it and she never stopped smiling once during that entire class. I love Robin, but that little girl was a joy to watch. And as it turns out, Robin isn’t the best one in her class on beam. So maybe it won’t be as boring as she thought.
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March 20
I was on the road and couldn’t fill out a bracket before the March Madness started, so I printed out paper ones for me and Billy before I looked at any scores. Billy had already seen some of the scores, so he got one freebie that I missed (really, High Point?), but otherwise we’re on even ground. I’m having fun looking up all the scores and marking up the brackets. I am a nerd. We were going to go to Sea World today, but Christina still isn’t feeling well. We did come to Orlando (which was a wall of traffic from start to finish, thank you, Florida), but I think we’re going to stay in. Hopefully Christina feels better tomorrow. If not, she’s going to have to find a bench to lie down on because we have to check out of the hotel at 11.
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March 15
Made it to NJ in really great time. It’s so great to see Aunt Cathrine and Uncle Bob. We spent the afternoon and evening getting the grand tour and catching up on pretty much all the things. They seem so happy in their new place and I don’t blame them. This place is pretty awesome! They rented us the little guest apartment that is right next to theirs and it is really so very nice. I’m truly exhausted, though, and glad for some quiet time before going to bed. Tomorrow will be a long day – and hopefully not too wet. Please?
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March 14
It was a pretty smooth drive to Virginia today, but oh so long and boring. It was nice to arrive before dinner time so we had time to relax a little before heading back out. I’m loving my new car, which welcomed us to every state we drove through and only needed 1 1/4 tanks of gas to go 500 miles. Not too shabby, little car.
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March 11
Robin had her second gymnastics trial class, this time level 2. Believe it or not, level 2 was easier than level 1, primarily because everyone in the class was between 7-9 years old. A lot of the apparatus they were using were too small for Robin to even use. She clearly needs to be in a level 3 class, which may still be too easy for her, but they are all filled. We’re waitlisted for one of them and in the meantime, Robin decided to stick with the level 2 class to brush up on her skills and stay active. I give her a lot of credit because it’s not easy taking a class when literally everyone is half your age, especially when you are only 14. It’s a huge developmental divide, but she’s into it, so I say yes! She also signed up for volleyball club at school, so I’m really happy to see her getting active in something. I hope it lasts.
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March 5
I hit a wall today at work. Too many stupid things left me feeling too depressed to go on. Luckily I was saved by Christina’s dance class, which gave me an excuse to log off early. Tonight I finally sat down and put together Robin’s 8th grade tribute ad for the yearbook. She wants to see it, but she’s just going to have to wait. I ran for six minutes this morning. That is six minutes more than I ran last Thursday, so I am doing good.
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February 12
Had a pretty decent day at work. It feels like work is taking over my life. Even though I log off on time, it’s all I think about. I feel very invested in it. I hope I can turn the program around the way I promised I would.
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February 2
Finally back to work today, my first day teaching. It felt pretty good. I am woefully underprepared for this class, but we’re gonna get through it anyway. I blew my hair straight the other day because it was too cold to go out with wet hair. I liked it so much I did it again today. I even got a compliment on it. I don’t know how long I will have the patience for this, but, I can say that I’ve been shaving consistently for more than a year now and THAT is something. So there is hope.
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January 28
I tried to work today. Made it about three hours before I thought my brain would implode. I’ve already decided to take tomorrow off. There has to be an end to this coming. The exhaustion is overwhelming.
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January 27
If I could take a picture of the inside of my brain, it would be compressed to 2/3 its original size and filled with a combination of cotton balls and spider webs. All the muscles in my body are tied in tight red knots. Opening my eyes takes monumental effort. I am such a wuss. I have been far more sick than this and not complained half as much. I have no choice, though, I have to go back to work tomorrow. We’ll see how that goes. I’m literally leading back to back meetings all eight hours of my day. I’ll just have to give it a shot and if I can’t do it, throw in the towel. At least I’ll have tried.
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January 24
We scratched off another card and took a kayaking tour on the river near Rock Springs in Apopka. It was beautiful! The kids were not interested in the least, although Robin did say on the way back that it was peaceful, which I think was positive. Our tour guide, Nigel, was great. I feel like I’ve been paddling enough times at this point that I should be better at steering, but apparently not. I’m glad we had the day free to do it and that the weather was so perfect.
