There was a bit of a mental breakdown today. I have been trying to make everyone around me happy on this trip and it just hasn’t worked. Robin hated me for making her hike up two mountains, Billy didn’t seem to want to hike with us at all. I felt like I was bringing Siggi and Brett into drama they don’t need. I finally broke down at the end of the day when I didn’t understand the GPS and then I drove over a curb. It was ugly. But I stole this smile from Robin when she wasn’t paying attention and I’ll take it. Maybe she doesn’t hate me completely.
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July 21
I did this today. I asked the stylist to cut at least four inches off, which she 110% did not even come close to doing. It’s like she just got tired of working on it. She snipped next to nothing. Also I thought she rushed the coloring. I think the color would have been more vivid if she’d let it set a little longer. Not thrilled with it, but I do like it. The kids love it and now they want to get their hair colored. If it didn’t cost $350, then maybe I would. It sucks not being rich.
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July 20
I have a lot to think over in the next few weeks. Trying not to get too overwhelmed. Grateful for my closest friends. And Pinot, who manages to find all the places.
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July 10
Back to work today. I already feel like I am way behind and can’t catch up. I’m also insanely exhausted.
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June 21
Time is slipping me by. I have had very little of it for myself, and when I do, I don’t know what to do with myself. I end up staring in space, running through lists of things I could do to fill up time, never actually doing anything. I need to do something replenishing, and soon. I’m fading into the ether, losing touch. Nothing feels right.
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June 12
My brain isn’t quite functioning at full capacity, but on the flip side, I am covered in living, loving creatures.
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June 7
So much is up in the air. One choice just leads to another one, and none of the options feel great.
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May 26
I’m working on the last cheer team photo, which has stymied me for days and required a lot of creativity and finesse for a novice like me. There is a metal fence to remove, and a large woman, and a truck, and a house. Basically 15% of the original photo is usable. But… I have learned an awful lot in the last two weeks.
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May 16
Today was a LOT better than any day in the last two-plus weeks. I am so relieved. I have no idea what changed. I guess it doesn’t really matter.
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May 9
My stomach unclenched for the first time in over a week today. It’s the first time I felt hungry since last Monday. It hasn’t been consistent, but it’s the first bit of relief I’ve had in what feels like forever. Also today: I spent 40 minutes in line to pick up a prescription from Walgreen’s. That was time I had been planning to spend outside watching the sun set. Whyyyyyy?
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April 10
This photo is exactly what it looks like – taking a photo for no other reason than I didn’t want to miss a day. I was literally in bed with the light off when I remembered and just couldn’t find the energy to get up and try to do something even remotely creative. I was so exhausted all day long, it was actually painful.
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March 30
Trying to conduct business meetings while Michael Kay is talking is harder than you might think.
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March 8
I turned off my alarm in my sleep this morning, which is really just a lame excuse for not wanting to get up and run on the treadmill. I’m thinking about turning the alarm off tomorrow too. The rest of the day was mildly disappointing, from mediocre writing for my class tomorrow to wasting time doing pointless work at my job to a listless card game with Billy and Christina after dinner. But I did do the dishes, so that’s a plus.
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February 28
There’s not much to say about today. I’m trying to write where I have very little inspiration and I’m taking photos right before bed just to check the box. There was cavatappi pasta and Sondheim and Webber singing and now I am going to pass out from exhaustion.
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February 2
Exciting things that happened today: I started a new workout at the gym, I ate a peanut butter sandwich, I finished re-reading The Chamber of Secrets (now to re-watch the movie), I have a church meeting tonight. I can barely contain myself.
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