• I slept past 10am for the first time in what feels like at least ten years. I was having dreams that Robin was being lured into making bad choices before a tribunal that was obliterating people for making said bad choices. I tried to step in on her behalf, saying she’s only a child, she…

    August 24
  • Not a great picture. I give it a zero. We played Quiddler and I pulled it out against Billy in the very last hand. Alexa even played fanfare music off the scorekeeping app I have on my phone. Billy and Christina didn’t appreciate that much, but I did.

    August 23
  • I love this wall. Every time I look at it, I see something different. And even though I’ve seen all the photos many times, they evoke different emotions each time. Tonight I looked at pictures of Robin smiling, genuinely smiling, and I find myself wondering if I’ll ever see that smile again. Today she was…

    August 22
  • I had a good talk with Robin (well, to Robin, because she never really said anything other than a barely perceptible nod or shake of the head). I don’t know if it helped her, but I felt better knowing I’d gotten my point across. Now she can make her own decisions and understand exactly where…

    August 21
  • I feel so ineffective as a parent. I wish I had someone to give me all the answers, to make this all just a little bit easier. It feels like we’re all groping around in the dark, running into each other and the wall, and no one can find the door or the light switch.…

    August 20
  • Florida skies can be pretty spectacular.

    August 19
  • My mood is tied too tightly with Robin’s moods. When she is upset, I’m upset. When she’s happy, I’m happy. It’s not just Robin, really, it’s just that her moods vacillate the most. It’s exhausting being Robin.

    August 18
  • Days at the pool are running out. I was sad that Robin wouldn’t come with us. Someday maybe we’ll have our own pool.

    August 17
  • We finally managed to get out to get Robin the ice cream she earned from that epic practice over a week ago. Between our trip to New York and Robin’s strep throat, we just couldn’t make it happen. But it was worth the wait. She even recovered when I told her she has a practice…

    August 16
  • I finally had a day with nothing to do except work. And I did a shit-ton of it, too. Now if I could just get to the pool… I’d be golden.

    August 15
  • Sleepy dog, sleepy mom. Robin has strep. I think I can sleep for a month.

    August 14
  • I can’t believe it’s only Tuesday, two days after getting back from New York. In two days, we’ve had the first day of school, physical therapy, Robin’s been sick with a fever, a cardiologist appointment, a dog with a skin infection, the cleaners have been here (not that you can tell anymore), and all the…

    August 13
  • Back to school today. Christina came home as bubbly as ever. Robin came home with a 103-degree fever. And so we begin.

    August 12
  • It was a long day of traveling. We got up at 2am for our 6am flight, which was subsequently delayed four hours, causing us to miss our connection. We had 19 minutes to make the new one, which required going to a separate terminal. Somehow we made it, even though my shoes kept falling off.…

    August 11
  • This trip has lived up to every expectation, and I am so grateful to the Universe for obliging me. We ended up not staying for the second game of the doubleheader, but they won the first game big (8-0) and we got to have a great dinner with Siggi and Brett and that was more…

    August 10