There are some nice things in the backyard if you look hard enough.
Author: peanut7312
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February 21
Back to the grind today. Survived the gym, did some prep for the class I’m leading on Thursday, worked hard all day and accomplished nothing, took the kids to the library, and now I’ve got an entire evening free! What! Also, our backyard is an absolute disgrace. I waited like 15 years to have my own backyard after years in the city, and this is what I’ve let it get to. This spring will require some real love and probably some dollars, but I’m determined to make this the sanctuary I wanted it to be when we first moved in.
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February 20
The morning started with intense anxiety over absolutely nothing, which led to tears, but then also led to this.
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February 19
I took Christina to the zoo today and on the way home we drove on the highway with all the windows open. It was so loud, but I could still hear Christina singing at the top of her lungs out the window. I absolutely love the little girl in her. I hope that innocence and creative spirit never dies.
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February 18
This is Coconut the hermit crab, Christina’s class pet for whom we are caring this weekend. This is the first time I’ve seen him out of his shell since we brought him home yesterday afternoon. He seems very timid but has been happily drinking water for about 45 minutes. I guess hermit crabs, like the inner workings of my job, do not move quickly.
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February 17
I have wanted to take this photo for about two weeks but have felt too self conscious to do it with people watching. Today some security guards watched me intently but didn’t say anything and now I’ve got it.
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February 16
Dealing with childcare is incredibly anxiety-inducing for me. I spent an entire hour at tonight’s chorus rehearsal panicking over whether I’d need a babysitter and then whether she’d be available if I did need her, and then when I thought she couldn’t come, I started planning what to do if I didn’t get home before Billy had to go to work, and then after all that, we finished in about 15 minutes and I made it home just in time. I seriously can’t do this anymore. I love singing with the chorus, but the stress is killing me.
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February 14
I have so many things on my plate. Preparing a worship service for this Sunday, trying to fix the world’s problems at work, performance week at the symphony, Dad’s 81st birthday, Valentine’s Day, remembering to put gas in my car, responding to texts from friends as best I can, preparing NAMI classes, writing, going to the gym… It’s all being balanced sort of like the Cat in the Hat, who has a fish in a dish and a cake on a ball and who knows what else. But even he couldn’t pull all that off in the end. Something’s gotta give. I just don’t have it in me to give up.
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February 13
I have overloaded myself with responsibilities and the stress is overwhelming. Even the smallest tasks seem difficult. I’m hoping the three-day weekend coming up is a chance to slow down a little.
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February 12
The girls came in second place (out of three). It was their best showing so far this season. So proud of them.
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February 11
The amount of makeup these kids were wearing was almost frightening. Here’s Christina trying to get hers off. To each their own.
