February 5

Today was terrible. I had to sing at church, which is always nerve-wracking. I felt like I sounded awful and I hated every second of it. Then I had big plans to go to the zoo with my DSLR and telephoto lens. I charged up the battery, got all my gear together, forced Robin to come against her will, got there, went to take my first picture, and realized I’d left the camera battery on the charger at home. It went downhill from there. Robin didn’t want to be there and let everyone know it. Christina had been at a sleepover the night before, so she was exhausted. Great combination – they started bickering, Robin kept asking to go home, so I just lost my shit and took them home without another word. Also today is the 31st anniversary of the day Dad died. I would love to go to bed and let tomorrow be another day, but tomorrow is MONDAY, and I can’t even face what that means. I don’t know how I am going to get through the rest of this month.