I did a 777-second run this morning because why not? Tonight I also had a NAMI class. It went a little better than last week, but still ran right up to the last minute. Billy brought home Huey Magoo’s for dinner and I ate every bite. Wednesdays are so much work right now! I’m exhausted.
Tag: reflection
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May 7
My run this morning was disappointing, thanks to tech failure. It was my first speed run since the winter and the intervals got messed up on my app and none of them were the right length. OH WELL. It was still a run, so not a total loss, and now I’ll just have to do it again next week. A new lawn company came to mow our lawn today but did not do the backyard because they said the gate was blocked. There is literally just a small bucket half filled with gravel that’s there to keep Pinot from digging under the gate. It’s maybe five pounds. How do you just not move it? They did not get paid. Today at work I finally learned what makes preapproved credit offers different from prescreened credit offers and why we apply two totally separate sets of laws to them. I’ve literally worked at this company for 20 years and never knew the difference. I feel enlightened. Took Christina to dance and it was SO HOT in the parking lot. I think it was 94 out and the sun was beating on me, plus wildfire smoke in the air. It was an unpleasant hour, but I refuse to sit in a running car for an hour just for air conditioning. Robin and I worked on her Ferrari Lego set after dinner. It’s starting to look like a car… we have a front end now. I am completely exhausted. I was up late last night and then up early this morning. I got maybe six hours of sleep, which I realize is probably not far from average, but I can’t handle it. It’s early, but I think I’m going to bed.
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March 13
It took a little over an hour of overtime, but I think I managed to get everything done at work that I needed to before going on vacation next week. There is so much to do and I am barely keeping up, but it is what it is at this point. I’m just happy I got the most important things done. I’m all packed and ready to leave in the morning. It feels weird to have everything done and not be rushing to do it. So this is what happens when you don’t leave everything for the last minute!
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March 12
My ankle still hurts after playing it “safe” and running on the sidewalk in the dark and not on the street, where I’m more likely to get run over if someone doesn’t see me. I was rewarded for that decision before I even rounded the corner, because I turned my ankle on some uneven sidewalk. It just keeps hurting more and more, which is annoying because I only got like two runs in after my last injury. The good news is it’s starting to feel better today, but with traveling next week, I will have to wait a little bit longer for my running fix. The good news is I found my headlamp, so I’ll be running on the flat pavement from now on.
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February 12
Had a pretty decent day at work. It feels like work is taking over my life. Even though I log off on time, it’s all I think about. I feel very invested in it. I hope I can turn the program around the way I promised I would.
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January 12
I ate a quarter pounder with cheese and fries in my car today as if I hadn’t eaten anything in days. You know the sound cartoons make when they’re scarfing food? That was me, and I was unashamed as I did it. It was salty af and the little bits of onions kept falling off of it, but it was exactly what I wanted in that moment. Even though I wolfed it down in less than 2 1/2 minutes, I savored every bite. I don’t know what it is about McDonald’s, but for me it is the ultimate comfort food. It definitely was one of the higher points in my day.
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September 4
Not surprisingly, I am exhausted today after staying up so late last night. I seriously considered not taking the kids to school so I could sleep in, but I sucked it up and got them there anyway. It was a tough day made tougher by back to back meetings literally ALL DAY LONG with zero breaks. After all that, we decided the hell with dinner and we went out to Picasso’s. It was so yummy, and everyone was in a good mood if only a little tired, and we had a lot of fun. I now want to sleep for two weeks.
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July 26
The wild manic streak I’ve been on for the past nine months seems to be coming to an end. I’ve finished all my projects and have been completely uninspired to start anything new. Most of the time I lie around, unable to think of anything worthwhile to do. I did manage to have lunch with a friend, which was nice. The girls and I went for a short walk after dinner and that was nice, too. I guess it’s better than nothing.
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June 28
We made it to somewhere in Georgia today after sitting in two hours of Atlanta traffic. The traffic was made less tedious by a podcast by the man who narrated our riverboat tour in New Orleans. We learned about the history of rum and then the history of Santa Claus! It was much better than listening to the YANKEES GAME in which the Yankees were having their asses handed to them on a stick. For dinner tonight, we walked across the Target parking lot to the Golden Corral, which I didn’t even know still exists. There is also an REI in the Target plaza, which means we’ve surely forgotten something that we won’t buy there now but will wish we had when we discover tomorrow that we’ve forgotten it. All in all, today is better than yesterday. Ready to enjoy my last night on a mattress and within reach of a shower for a few days.
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May 13
Finally got my car fixed today after smacking my side mirror into a mailbox a couple months ago (of course the mailbox was fine). Enjoyed another quiet night where I got to cook dinner (grilled curried shrimp and rice) and spent some time helping Robin study for her Civics final tomorrow. I also finished the last crossword puzzle in my book, which is so utterly sad. Added some new books to my Amazon wishlist that I’m confident no one looks at besides me. Someday I’ll treat myself.
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February 18
We played Mind the Gap tonight, and Christina cried real, actual tears because she felt incapable of rolling a high number on the die. Had we rolled more fives and sixes instead of ones and twos, we might have had a chance. Billy had to ice it by saying she could have as many cookies as what she could manage to roll. She rolled a two. Girl should never bet on craps, is all I’m going to say.
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February 3
Robin is dealing with the heart-wrenching reality of low self esteem paired with other insecure teenagers pressing on it. I wish I could insert some self confidence in her, but it has to come from her. One thing I have had to learn over and over as a mom is that I can’t fix everything. Sometimes the most helpful thing I can do is sit with her in silence while she works things out for herself. The good news is that it does seem to help in its own slow but meaningful way. If nothing else, she should always know that I am in her corner no matter what. No one could love her more.
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November 24
I went for a 4.5-mile bike ride around the neighborhood today, but more impressively, I repaired my bike before going, without any help. The brake line had come loose and the handlebars were misaligned. God knows how the kids have been riding this thing. I realized the front wheel was also loose since it wobbled and rubbed the brake pad the whole way, making my pedaling difficult regardless of what gear I was in. I managed to tighten that up when I got back too. And the seat was too low, which was intentional so Christina could ride it, but it made for an uncomfortable ride. Still, the weather was gorgeous and it felt good to be outside moving around.
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November 12
I slept on the couch last night and Billy didn’t even notice. He was making so much noise in his sleep, I couldn’t fall asleep myself, so I went to the office and slept there. I guess I’m so still and quiet when I sleep that it’s just like not being there at all! We had a good laugh about it today.
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October 21
Had lunch with Myrna today, which is always a good time. I wish I’d had a little more time for myself today, but even on a day off, I can’t seem to make it happen. It is really starting to frustrate me.
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