I had a rough morning. Being a parent is hard. Especially when it puts you face to face with the way you treated your own parents. I found myself pitting hurt and grief against guilt and regret and it sucked. I tried to run through it and that helped, but at the end of the day it was the same. I fear my relationship with Robin will end the way my relationship with my mom did, and that rips me to the core. How on earth do you deal with these enormous emotions and still parent your kids?
Tag: losco park
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November 26
I spent six hours making an apple pie salted caramel cheesecake for dinner tomorrow. Each of the components tastes good on its own, so hopefully when it all comes together tomorrow it’ll be awesome. I had fun making it, but now I’m tired. I have to get up at 5:30 tomorrow morning for my 5k and I am not looking forward to it. Even birds don’t wake up at 5:30am. It’s for a good cause, though. I know I’ll come home pumped up and ready for some apple pie salted caramel cheesecake.
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October 17
I had a great run this morning, which really set the tone for the whole day. I bought a bunch of yarn to make octopus keychains, but it’s too fat, so I decided instead to make granny squares. We’ll see how many of them I can get, and whether it’s enough to make anything of value. It’s nice to have something to do.
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November 25
About five minutes after I took this photo, everything went to shit. Robin got sick, we ended up missing cheer practice, and everyone got upset. I think things are on the mend, but ugh.
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October 24
Had to call 911 today after stopping at a crash scene on the way to dance. Several other drivers in front of me would have had a clear view of what happened, but none stopped. I was a few cars back and only heard the crash, but at least I stopped to call for help. At least three cars were involved and one person had to be taken in an ambulance, but no one seemed seriously hurt. I am angry and dismayed that there were witnesses who just kept driving. I am also mad at the assholes who were purposely feeding squirrels at the park. They brought a gallon-sized bag of food specifically to feed them. I’m sure all these people have their reasons for behaving this way. Doesn’t make me any less disappointed in humanity.
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October 8
I’ve hiked the trails at Losco Park about a thousand times, but today somehow I got turned around and ended up hiking the loop twice, turning a 1.5-mile hike into a 4+ mile hike. It wouldn’t have been that big a deal, except Christina and the dogs were with me and the dogs were exhausted and Christina didn’t really even want to come in the first place. They were all troopers, though. Christina didn’t even complain a little bit. At least the weather was nice. Gorgeous, in fact. One of the first fall days of the year.
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June 3
The girls had haircuts today. Robin hadn’t had one in something like two years, and she cut off around five inches. They both got blowouts and they looked so different with straight hair! They were both so happy with the cuts, and I’m glad. Then I met up with Myrna for lunch. I love Myrna. And then Christina wanted to go to Losco Park, I think hoping that one of her friends might happen to be there too. No one she knew was there, though, so we only stayed for about 20 minutes. Still nice to get outside for a little while, especially after like 15 hours in the theater yesterday. I talked to Aunt Cathrine and Peggy and Rosina and now it’s 10pm and I am just settling for the first time all day. Whew.
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May 10
I decided to go to the park while the girls were at cheer practice, thinking I’d read under a tree, but then I thought why not a short hike? I figured I’d be done in 45 minutes, well before sunset and when I’d have to leave to get the kids. Except I miscalculated the distance. I did two trails which I thought were a mile and a half combined. Actually it was a mile and a half for one trail and three quarters of a mile for the other. I had dawdled at the beginning thinking I had tons of time, but the last 20 minutes were rather speedy. I’m glad Christina wasn’t with me, because she would have freaked about hiking in the dark. Who knows what lurks in the shadows?
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May 2
I had a total meltdown yesterday. It came out of nowhere. Somehow I managed to steer myself to the park for half an hour. Not sure it made a big difference, but at least I tried. Maybe a small difference is ok.
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April 23
It was another long day of training today, after which I got Christina and Jackson to join me in a quick trip to the park. The weather could not have been any more incredible, and I really regretted having to leave, but hunger calls.
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April 5
I don’t know if I should disclose that I got fed up with work today and took the kids to the park after picking them up from school instead of coming back to work. I do not regret it even one iota. Sunshine can work wonders.
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February 6
I ended up taking the day off work today. The idea of getting up at 6:30am and going nonstop until 9:30pm was just too overwhelming after the last couple of days. The extra time to myself isn’t really improving my mood, but it’s definitely not making it worse, which I’m sure would have been the case otherwise. Spending some time reading at the park before picking the kids up from school.
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