I don’t regret my career decision late last year to take on this training role, but I very clearly did not anticipate the level of challenge I’ve faced over the last three months. Everything from scheduling pressures to insufficient content design to poor trainee performance to judgment from the leadership team to a complete unwillingness to change the operating model that clearly isn’t working. I didn’t anticipate feeling like such a complete failure after so short a time with little to no hope for a way out. I’m disappointed by selfish motives and closed minds. If I hear one more person say, well, this other person did it this way ten years ago and it worked fine, I may lose my bananas. This job has me feeling a range of emotions that I’m not used to feeling every day. I’m frustrated but up for the challenge. I just wish I had some better outlets to blow off steam than doing NYT crossword puzzles, knitting, and rifling through music in the dance studio parking lot. Right now there’s no balance and that’s no good. This patio project I’m starting will either give me the personal lift I need or crush me even further into despair. How’s THAT for pressure? Do I ever learn anything?
Tag: baseball
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April 14
Finished this puzzle today. Putting together all the crowd sections was hard. All the pieces looked basically the same, and the pieces didn’t fit together intuitively. I wasn’t sure I was going to make it. But I finished in time to go to cheer, where I also finished a sweater I’ve been working on for more than a year. I just have to block it now. Like the puzzle, it was a hard pattern to follow. I’m surprised it looks like a sweater at all, or that it fits. And then I came home from cheer, ate dinner, and fell asleep on the couch.
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October 15
Two of my favorite things: Outside by the fire and the Yankees are winning (even though it feels like they’re losing). The fire pit was a good buy.
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August 10
This trip has lived up to every expectation, and I am so grateful to the Universe for obliging me. We ended up not staying for the second game of the doubleheader, but they won the first game big (8-0) and we got to have a great dinner with Siggi and Brett and that was more worth it. They ended up losing the second game big, so obviously we didn’t miss anything .We went to Zaro’s and got black and white cookies, and we went to an Irish pub and watched Olympics and drank beer and honestly it has felt so good to be home. I miss this city with all my heart. I could not live here again with the kids and through the long winters, not to mention how expensive it is, but it feels so good riding the subway and walking through avenues and city blocks. I literally feel at home. Going back to Jacksonville is going to be hard… but we’ll be back.
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June 15
On a bit of a whim, we went to a Jumbo Shrimp game. They lost, but it was fun! The weather was surprisingly nice – not too hot at all, even with the sun in our faces for the first three innings. It was nice to have some family time.
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June 11
It is disgustingly humid outside tonight, but I need to do something to try to turn this day around, even if it is 9:42pm. Fresh air never did me wrong. Beer and baseball don’t hurt, either.
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May 31
Today was the last day of school and the kids were home by noon. It is so hard to work from home on the last day of school when your kids are home at noon. I was ready to log off at 2:27, and almost did, but I pushed through. The weather’s been a little cooler, so we had hamburgers and hot dogs out on the back patio. I love eating outside. Finished the day with s’mores in the living room and a late baseball game and falling asleep on the couch.
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June 11
It’s a long way from the Bronx, but it’s baseball. The stadium was so empty, but the game included an inside the park grand slam (which really wasn’t a grand slam because the only reason he made it around all the bases was because of the outfielder’s error) and our seats were in the shade, so I was happy. Less people in the stadium also meant no traffic coming or going, and pretty good parking. People in Florida just don’t appreciate baseball. Probably because it’s so damn hot.
Year in Photos 