I was on a call at work yesterday with someone who is grieving the loss of her husband and having a hard time. I don’t know if prayer shawls really mean anything or if it’s insulting to even imply they could make anything better at all. I still haven’t opened cards people sent me when my mom died over ten years ago because I know not one of those people had any idea what kind of grief I was facing. I was angry that anyone thought a piece of paper could make any kind of difference to me during that time. But as someone on the other side of grief, it feels like I should at least try to be there for her, if not now, then when she’s ready. So I’m making the shawl, probably as much for myself as I am for her. Love waits patiently. All I can do is hope.
Category: November 2024
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November 14
The kids learned what a VCR is today. It took a few minutes, but they also figured out how to tune my clock radio, which my dad gave me in 1990, to their favorite station. Kids are so entertaining.
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November 13
Today was so exhausting. Back to back meetings all day with all kinds of nonsense, and then all the endless driving that comes on Wednesdays. Bedtime can’t come fast enough.
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November 12
I slept on the couch last night and Billy didn’t even notice. He was making so much noise in his sleep, I couldn’t fall asleep myself, so I went to the office and slept there. I guess I’m so still and quiet when I sleep that it’s just like not being there at all! We had a good laugh about it today.
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November 11
The sky was so much prettier about five minutes before I took this photo, but I was stuck driving and couldn’t get a shot of it. Seems to be the way it goes in the life of a taxi driver.
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November 10
All four of us got haircuts today, and they all look great! For some reason, Christina decided to brush all those beautiful curls out of her hair. She said she wanted to see if they’d stay. Turns out they did not. It was nice while it lasted!
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November 9
We saw Robin’s first cheer performance of the season this morning. The team looks pretty good! We all left in a good mood, but for some reason I don’t know, by the time we got home, we were all grouchy. Believe it or not, I turned my mood around by going food shopping. And then I made a really great, really fancy meal of cider-glazed pork loin with sweet potatoes. It took forever to make, but it was so delicious, and fun to make. Altogether, not a bad day.
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November 8
I was so exhausted all day long. I fell asleep during Christina’s dance class and simply couldn’t stay awake after dinner. I don’t know why I am so tired, but I am going to bed.
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November 7
I took Christina out for ice cream tonight to thank her for cleaning out my car without even being asked. It was nice getting to spend some one on one time with her, even if it was just 20 minutes. The rest of the day was a marathon. They’re all marathons. I just can’t seem to keep up.
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November 6
I actually took some time after everyone went to bed to do some writing. The outcome of this presidential election is baffling to me. There has to be some way of making sense of it. I think that no matter how much I write, I will never really figure it out. In thousands of years, we humans have gotten nowhere.
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November 5
Today was one of those days. I’m doing my best to do the right thing. I don’t know if I succeeded 100% today, but I did at least try.
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November 4
Mondays and Wednesdays are marathons. At least today was fairly productive. Got some bills paid and some papers off my desk. Such a small thing, but a huge weight lifted because it’s been sitting undone for weeks. Now, at last, bed.
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November 3
Trying to keep vacation vibes going as long as I can. Being outside in nature fills me up in a way nothing else does. Time with myself is precious too. Spent the morning on the UNF trails. It’s been years since I was there and I didn’t remember how beautiful it was (in places… some spots were tedious and directly next to the highway). I need as much of this in my life as I can get.
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November 2
I had plans to go to the park while Christina was at a birthday party, but changed my plans so Robin could come to the gym with me at that time instead. Well, Robin didn’t come to the gym with me and I didn’t go to the park. So now we have a picture of a clock. You’re welcome.
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November 1
All day long I thought it was Monday. It’s definitely better thinking it’s Monday when it’s actually Friday than it is thinking it’s Friday when it’s actually Monday!
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