It was another long day. I spent 40 minutes making this delicious rice and beans that normally everyone loves for dinner and then no one ate it. Christina wouldn’t speak to me for two hours, saying she hates me, because I wouldn’t set up a phone line for her. I love doing things for the people I love, but I do sometimes wish they’d respond with a thank you instead of demands for more.
Author: peanut7312
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October 4
Poor Pinot has another abscess. The vet recommended having his anal glands removed so that it doesn’t keep happening. This was his second one this year and it is very painful to drain when they happen. Apparently once he’s had them, he becomes more prone to them in the future. Poor guy. Not sure what we’ll do. I just want him to be a happy boy.
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October 3
The first time I looked at the music I had to read for chorus all those years ago when I first joined, my eyes almost fell out of my head. I knew I’d seen all the elements of music that were on the page before, but it was all so tiny and there was so much there and it wasn’t in English! I took one look at it and almost dropped it back off at the table and went home. I was beyond intimidated, feeling I was in way over my head. And I kinda was. I pretty much still am. But somehow I haven’t been asked to leave yet, so I keep showing up and faking it as best I can. It’s a privilege to fake it like this year after year without being asked to leave and I am grateful. Grateful that I haven’t given up and grateful that they haven’t given up on me. Performing in this space is one of the few things I do that I feel has worth.
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October 2
Coming along after a rough start. I really hope it fits, although I have a sinking feeling that it may be a little tight. I really didn’t understand the measurements in the pattern diagram. Oh well. It’ll fit somebody.
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October 1
I think in 6th grade you don’t call them play dates anymore, but I took Robin to hang out with her friend at Barnes & Noble today. It was my first time meeting her and she seems pretty awesome. I’m happy Robin has a friend like her. Also, Barnes & Noble was jumping! I don’t know how they compete with Amazon, though I will say there’s something tantalizing about touching books before you buy them. I think books even have a scent. I bought some things for some people and I’m glad I went.
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September 30
We’re trying something new. I hope it helps Robin find her voice and her smile. Because both are beautiful.
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September 28
It’s been like five minutes since I last took a picture of Pinot. Lest anyone feel deprived.
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September 27
Wednesdays are a marathon. Between work, dance, cheer, dinner, and literally hours of driving between them all, it is a lot. If you love me, don’t ever ask me to do anything on a Wednesday.
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September 26
It looks like I might have to suck it up and practice the music for our next chorus rehearsal. We got yelled at today for not knowing the music and man, it felt crappy. I mean, in 10+ years I have never taken the time to learn the music at home, but tonight is the first time I felt guilty for it. So we’ll see.
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September 25
Today was a lot of putting one foot in front of the other, trying to get stuff done instead of putting it off, with approximately a 72% success rate.
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September 24
Today was my last NAMI class for this year. I’m so glad I get to do this. It’s as good for me as it is for the people taking the class. But it will be nice to have my Sunday afternoons free again.
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September 23
I dragged the children against their will to walk in the name of mental health. Robin didn’t say much, but the BODY LANGUAGE. I wish I’d taken a picture of the death stare. In the end it wasn’t so bad. The weather was great and they mostly suffered in silence. It’s the first year since I’ve been teaching that I actually made it to the walk. I’m glad I did.
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September 22
Today was the Festival of Courage at school. Robin has aged out of the performances, but Christina played xylophone for her grade’s musical performance. This is the seventh year we’ve celebrated the Festival of Courage and it’s just another reason to love their school. Plus there were live dragons involved.
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September 21
I feel like I am always buying the kids shoes. How do they go through them so quickly? Why are they so expensive? Damn it, shoes!
