The first time I looked at the music I had to read for chorus all those years ago when I first joined, my eyes almost fell out of my head. I knew I’d seen all the elements of music that were on the page before, but it was all so tiny and there was so much there and it wasn’t in English! I took one look at it and almost dropped it back off at the table and went home. I was beyond intimidated, feeling I was in way over my head. And I kinda was. I pretty much still am. But somehow I haven’t been asked to leave yet, so I keep showing up and faking it as best I can. It’s a privilege to fake it like this year after year without being asked to leave and I am grateful. Grateful that I haven’t given up and grateful that they haven’t given up on me. Performing in this space is one of the few things I do that I feel has worth.
Year in Photos 
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